'Cause you said, said he was the one
Baby yes you said, said you were in love

Juliana aka Kokananthini

20th July :)

Blur queen

Bro Jean Xiaoling Surein Irene Fizah Azian Alvin Ailing KaiLeng Cixian Terence Michelle XueLi Dap Paula May KeYing WeiYi MayLwin Fyan Piang Mindy Nick Joanne

Tuesday, June 09, 2009, 11:57:00 AM

MY BLOG IS DEAD FOR 2 MTHS AND IM COMING BACK TO REVIVE IT!!

Last entry was on March, this month is June, in between this 3 months many things happened. Happy moments lasted for nearly 2 months and it came to an end.. ='(
And the last entry had him inside..

Thinking back, though there are a lot of down side but there are a lot more of up side too. How we met, the places we went, we do, laughter, anger and many more. I simply dont understand why things ended so sudden. Remembering the days u were so happy, the effort that u put in and the way u show people how happy u r. Guess good things still comes to an end and people tends to dont get the things that they want. I cannot deny that i still have some feelings for u, and i miss ur presence a lot.

Sunday morning, passing u back ur things is a thing that i dont wish to do but i have no choice. Seeing u makes me cry, wished that i can talk to u and wished that such things dont happen. Sigh.

Trying to occupy myself with things to prevent me from being a watertap for so many days. Went to the Zoo with Jean and Joe after a trip to northpoint. Jean, Habib and i can start a E71 family, 2 black and 1 white. Back to the Zoo, we got nth to do hence, we went there. The 3 of us have not visit Zoo for a very long time, both of them were the entertainer for the day, they really make me laugh. *wish u were there*

I simply love her, always here for me. I cried when she called me in the morning cos *dont know how to put it*. Just feel very comforting that she is here for me, wanted to hug her n cry my hearts out but i did not, dont know what's the reason, i just cried over at the kopitiam table, and Uncle sang a sad song to make me laugh while im crying. After Zoo, we went to eat Mee Sua at Kembangan then to Jln Kayu to meet CX and her bf. CX very poor thing, got flooded with a lot of advise from us.

Yesterday night, supposed to watch movie with XL, but in the end we did not cos she made a mistake on the movie dates and the movie plan moved to next monday. So, we met at ECP to have a coffee session, talked a lot, enjoyed the breeze by the beach and eating my favourite Ferraro Dark Choc. Enjoyed her company. Treasuring her.

Hoping my days will get better n better. Sigh.




Overdose on Mac Fries..
Monday, March 23, 2009, 7:52:00 PM

Blogging LIVE from Suntec Mac..

Over the weekend, Jason with his friend and i went to Timbre @ The Art House. BUT it was full house when we reached there, thanks to Jason!! Cos he was late, in the end both of us blame each other for being late. He said Timbre is the safest place cos Sir Stamford Raffles is standing there guarding the area, i nearly fainted when i hear him saying this. Sooooo, we walked to Clark Quay to check if there were any pubs that have TV and on ESPN channel cos Jason wants to watch the Man Utd match. Walked around most of them were full except Hooters, and we went in to eat and drink. The girls there were ok, nth special. Jason tried to call his friend who is working at Timbre to check if he can get us seats. Surprisingly, he did! So we finished our food and drank the Vodka Orange down and walked back to Timbre. It's my fist visit to Hooters and Timbre.

Work was fine over the weekend. This morning went back to school for FYP weekly meeting. I thought i was late for the meeting but in the end i was not!! Wasted my money on taking cab =( *sigh*

The meeting in the morning with the person-in-charge of the department that we supposed to do our project on makes us confused. From we roughly know what to do becomes dont know what to do. Headache. My day will end with slacking all the way at Mac. Have u heard of 'overdose on mac fries', im chatting with a friend online now saying that to me cos i say im cute mini julie and he's not. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! He's just jealous that im cuter than him. =x

This is Mini Julie blogging LIVE from Suntec Mac, Singapore.




More Than This
Saturday, March 21, 2009, 5:03:00 PM

Yday Jannah and i went to OCC for a small briefing for today's open house. Then i went to Muhd Sultan Rd to look for them cos they were having Bak Ku Teh. I nearly took cab there but my friend convinced me to take train. I neglected Surein, sorry Su! Jean was supposed to meet us but she had sth on last min. I was quite surprised to see my primary class and school mate at the table that my friends were sitting at. It's been a long time already. We then change to Dempsey Hill for sth to eat cos i din had dinner and i had B&J for dinner. Alvin and Stanley did not want to join us at Dempsey so we went to Halo Bar to meet them.

KL intro me this drink called Flaming Lamborghini. Initially, i dont dare to drink but i still drank it. The after taste was alright just that the throat to chest felt hot, burning. End of the whole drinking session, im feeling a bit high already. Im so sorry to trouble Chris to send me home cos he have to send Alvin home too. Have to go one big round. *Sigh*

Thurs, i went car washing with Stan. He's supposed to go JB but there was a heavy traffic jam. So he came n picked me up and we went to Woodland for car wash. We were there until evening then we went home, at night, we met at Yd to chill. KL and i realized that the reception at Yd was very bad cos we tried to call Mac but the line is either cannot get through or get cut. Finally KL got it through and we got Mac to eat!!!

Absence makes the heart grows fonder.




Cranky & Emotional
Wednesday, March 18, 2009, 2:31:00 PM

For the past few days, i've been very cranky and emotional. Especially yday, i kept using the word 'knn', so unlady of me to use tt but i din mean it. I got told off when im on the phone with 2 person, and i dont even have the intention of rushing them and i really dont know where is the person's location. Heard before yawning is contagious right?? Now i can say Emo is also contagious.

Jean came to my house yday!! I was very happy cos it's the first time after so long that a friend came to my house. Watched tv tgt and use internet, just nice Jean's house internet was down. I hope i did not bore her cos my house gt no mahjong table or game console for her to play. We then head down to Toa Payoh for dinner at this western called Uno. The review from them was so-so only. Anyway, it was my 2nd time patronising the store. Bjorn called to ask if we want to go prawning at Bishan, everyone went except Jean, Joe and Don.

We were prawning like we normally do until there was a betting going on between Stan and Chris. Kailing and i were just watching them prawning and chit-chatting until they finish their competition and start bbq-ing the prawn. In total, we prawned 18 of it in 3 hours. Erm.. a bit pathetic. After which, they continue their games and drinking until 2 plus and our day ends.

Life is really like a box of chocolate, we nv know what we gonna get..




Physically Tired
Sunday, March 15, 2009, 8:54:00 AM

Not that i dont want to update my blog, i am just freakingly LAZY to update. Yday Stan and i were working at IT Show, end of the day, both of us were shagged out. Walking and squeezing in the show is so different from working in the booth. Practically, u were standing for the whole of 10 hours =( But was quite an experience.

There are things that i want to type it out here but am afraid. *Sigh* Life really sux..




Mentally Tired & Physically Sick
Sunday, February 08, 2009, 12:58:00 PM

Im feeling unwell again. When will i be able to recover fully!!!!

Im really really mentally tired, keeps on occupying myself with things to do and now im sick!! Recalling a lot of happy and sad moments, is it just a dream?? It seems that the same things is happening again.

The childcare interview is alright, they will call me back again. Before going for the interview, Chris asked me not to harm the kids cos he says i got no 'ai xin' one. *sigh*
Yday, i went for the 2nd training at Singapore Pools, i din know that it will be hands on and i really have to talk to the customers and navigate the system even though the mentor was beside me guiding me. I was very nervous when answering the phone call ESPECIALLY CHINESE SPEAKING customers cos i still do not know all the chinese term for all the different kinds of bet. I have to memorise my chinese script already.

After training, went out with my colleague cum schoolmate cum friend's sis to Plaza Sing then to Bugis cos i 'fan tai sui', so i went to pray. Met her friends, accompanied her to eat then we went to Bugis Junction. Had a lot of fun with them even though i just got to know them. I met Chris for dinner cos he owe me ice-cream so we went to Marina Sq to have MOF!! Now im still having the craving for Swordfish sashimi. Then we went and buy Anderson ice-cream, i like the Bailey's scorched sth ice-cream cos gt Bailey's!! Walked around, chit chat, thinking of what to do next cos clubbing was cancelled as no one wants to go. In the end, we went to Cineleisure to play Left4Dead! Nearly got into accident on our way there. Chris first time playing that game, and it's been a long time since he play lan game. Our night ends there.

Today, i feel so restless..
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丁噹 - 猜不透

video

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心 上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透




I'm Scared
Thursday, February 05, 2009, 10:56:00 AM

I hate things hanging in the air and im feeling unpleasant about it. I HATE that feeling. And im scared of getting answers cos i know im not a fighter, i dont fight for things that i believe in. This is one of my flaws, thats y i tend to lose out or take granted for.

Apart from that, i got the call from the childcare at OCC to go for the interview on Friday. Perhaps i will take up this job instead of the Singapore Pools one cos i've been wanting to experience it.

Yday was a night that all the gbt guys were at town area instead of Halo Bar, Jean's house or ECP. That's a rare sight for me. We were at town area cos we went to accompany Stanley as he have 3 hrs of break, trying to dig out information of a girl that Alvin is interested in. After which, we went to YD as Darren meets us there. Had a lot fun and tension talks at YD, and i learn quite a bit from Darren. We went for supper and head home to sleep.

Off topic a bit, i find that guys(not condemning all guys), they are shallow, 犯贱. Hearing so many things happen to most of my gfs. *Sigh*
Darren says guys by DEFAULT they are like that, and human beings wasnt really meant for each other at first but still boys & girls attract each other, and this is a very big question marks that no one can solve.
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Duffy - I'm Scared

The blank pages of my diary,
That I haven't touched since you left me,
The closed blinds in my home
See no light of day.
Dust gathers on my stereo
Cos I can't bare to hear the radio
The piano sits in a shaded space
With a picture of your face.

I'm scared to face another day
Cos the fear in me just won't go away.
In an instant, you were gone and I'm scared.

Coffee stains on your favorite book
Remind me of you so I can't take a look.
The magazines you left on the floor,
You won't need them anymore.

A towel left hangin on the wall,
No sign of wet foosteps in the hall
There's no smell of your sweet cologne.
I'm lying here alone.

I'm scared to face another day
Cos the fear in me just won't go away.
In an instant, you were gone and now I'm scared.

I'm scared to face another day
Cos the fear in me just won't go away.
In an instant, you were gone, now I'm scared.
In an instant you were gone and I'm scared.